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It's
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Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
And whatever they say
Your souls unbreakable

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
Please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

So it's pretty obvious what the main theme of this journal entry is going to be. Sorry for being so cliché and boring, but I can't help it. I'm a teenage girl, really, what more can you expect with all these hormones going wild inside of me? Either way, I've definitely been bitten by the love bug, I'm not going to try to deny it. Partly because I would fail, and partly because it's so much fun to obsess. So, who am I obsessing over this time? No, it's not Logan effing Emerson. Never again will I fall for that boy. He's stupid, stuck up, arrogant, annoying, full of himself, and just a plain jerk. I don't care if Violet's dating him and thinks he's amazing, he's not. End of story. Actually it's not, since I'm considering smashing both of them over the head with a folding chair sometime soon. Logan because, well, he's Logan and I don't want him dating Vi. And Vi because her choice of boys has been less than spectacular lately, and I don't want her to get hurt [by him at least, I have free rein]. But I'll stop ranting now, it's off topic [sort of], and I ran out of steam. That was a pretty short one for me actually, usually I can manage much longer ones... But ANYWAYS. Who could it be you ask? Charlie Wright, the druggie I met a couple days ago and got into a fight with on the same encounter? Um, no. I'll talk about him later, but let's just get it straight right now that I do not like him, and never will. Caden? Nope, too fake for me, maybe other people can't, but I can definitely tell that he's not an ITboy at heart. As far as I can tell he should be a scene, but whatever, it's none of my business.

Okay okay, I'll stop teasing you. The boy I've fallen [hard] for, is none other than my dear Tory. Yeah I know, even more cliché. Well, it's not horrible since he doesn't like me and we're not going to end up married, but I don't really want to think about that right now. Back on subject. Yes, I am currently in like [I'm not going to say love, not yet] with Tory. Tory my best friend. Tory the boy I have known for ages. Tory the boy who I talk to almost as much as Megan, Roxy, and Vi, which is quite an accomplishment. Tory the beautiful boy who is amazing and funny and cute and intelligent and creative and shy and sweet and sincere and so many more things. Besides my three girls, he's my closest friend ever. I know him inside and out, and vice versa. We have each other's backs no matter what, and we've gotten in a fair share of trouble together. Even if I didn't like him I don't know how I would live without him. Where's my point with all of this? I'm not sure. But all of that is why I was attracted to him. I've actually always thought we had a chemistry going on, but it's only this year that it really turned into an attraction on my part. Damn, I'm not making any sense at all. Haha, he even has an affect on me when I'm simply writing about him!

But moving on a little bit. I don't know what to do about it. I know that I really like him, and I don't have half crushes on anyone else. If I'm being totally honest with myself, I can see us going out, it's not just a fantasy. But he doesn't like me, I know him well enough to know that. And really, why would he like me? He's so freaking awesome, and I'm just me. I've never had a boyfriend before [no I don't count Logan, he's a jackass, and it was a serious lapse of judgment on my part], so why should this be any different? I really wish it would be, but... Oh well. There are some more problems with it though. He's a year younger than me, and actually an inch shorter. It doesn't have any effect on me [which is ironic since I've always said I would never like someone who's shorter than me], but I can see how it would make him feel awkward. Still, I should consider myself lucky. I get to spend a lot of time with him since we're so close, at least I get that much. That's another thing! When we're together, I sometimes think that there's something there, besides the chemistry and our closeness. We're both affectionate people, so we call each other 'dear' and 'honey' and 'love' and that sort of thing, and he's a sucker for physical contact, so we hug a lot and all that, but it's confusing. I can't tell if it's flirting, or just our personalities. Whatever it is though, I love it, although I do wish I could figure something out for sure.

That's all I have time for tonight, but I'll definitely write more about it later. I'll write about other things too, but this will come first. =] Night night.